Fake or Real? Nah All people r colourful...jst matters in which hue we see them....

Stop being a baby....
Be mature...
Such a kiddo u r...
Mature ho jara....
Bacchi nai ab tu...
badi h badi jaisi reh......
Baalish h tu........
Kitne saal ki ho gayi phir b samjh nai ayi...
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Bs maine hi nhi bahot logon ne ye sab kuch suna hoga aaj tk....
Bahot gussa b aata h na...
Ye gussa hum khupr ya dusron pe nikalne pr aa jate h...
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Bs smjh liya ab
Bs  bolni ki baatein h ki be a child bacchon jaisa socho...
Jldi mt mature bano...n all..
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Shayad trackse bhatak gaye hum...
Bt ye b ek sochne ki baat h na...
To lets move to our todays topic....
Fake n real?
Fake n real banna is not like..
Koi costume pehenliya aur wo hum ban gaye...
Being fake makes us loose us...the real us...
Bt don't u think Fake is trending these days....
Jo fake hota h aajkal use hi kimmat di jati h...
Real ki koi value hi nai...
Agar hum real b rahe na logon ko to kbhi na kbhi lagna hi h ki hum fake...
Qki agar hum laal colour ka chashma pehne humein laal colour ki hi duniya dikhegi.  
Jise bura manna h maane ab 
Khud fake hokar dusron ko fake bolna...
Kya yahi life ka end hona h?
Agar hum kisiko fake manenge
Kya hum bade mane jayenge
Maine kbhi kisiko fake mana hi nai...
Bt ab logon se reasons milre h
Unko fake banane k
Fake wo hote h jo andarse h kuch aur n dikhane kuch aur chahte....
Waise mai bs fake ispe lec nhi dena h mujhe ya uska meaning nhi samjhari hu...
Though ye blog bahot alag...yeh baat bahot personal h bt socially hi iska ans dungi aaj mai...
Yeh blog ek msg h unkeliye jinhe lagta h I'm fake...ho b sakti hu unke nazron me...
Sry foh tht unknowingly kiya hoga...
Bt ya maine kbhi jaanbujhkar nai kiya...
N plz stop being so rude n stupid...
Agar u think I'm fake
Yes I m!
N being fake is not tht easy
Being fake to ua Mom  when she asks r u ok?
Being fake to tht sister who asks di will papa come back?
Being fake for those who think their happiness lies in u..
Being fake to yourself is not tht easy my dear...
Its not tht easy dea..
If dis is being fake....
Thn m d best for dis u know...
Bt dis being fake is not ua kinda fakeness
Ua lost my dea👏👏
So wake up n get life
Or sleep n get lost. 
Waise dont let d behaviour of others destroy ua inner peace
#strongly dedicated✌
Waise I hope you get wats fake n wats real....
Actually I dont know wat have I written in dis blogs...
A lots of things I learnt....
Hope u like it😇
N have a difference between fake n real..
N be aware of dis!

Answer!

Walking alone wid bags full of thoughts, I decided to stop.

Why do we fall in love and knit that madness
Why cant we avoid that craze, that shameless mess?
The horrifying past, taught so many lessons
Gave pain
The past the teacher, told not to repeat that mistake again!
How come loneliness the honest companion, walks away from us
Why being lonely, which was merry b4 suddenly becomes a fuss.

Being alone wid bags of questions I decided to sit

Why was d past good once, why were d memories born?
Why d lover came, why now r d silly love letters torn?
If d innocent soul has to broken then y do we even trust?
Immersed n soaked in purity of affection, the timid heart speaks!
Agony breaks us in pieces then neither the drug works nor the techniques

Sitting alone wid bags of emotions
I decided to walk.

What is d destiny's way, why that coin is made of two sides?
Which is d right way to end, how would d lonely soul decide?
Holding d pieces of broken soul, we stitch our body a new
We travel, we sing, we dance, we run away, but sadness remains like flu!
Can we erase the dual paths
Can we free ourselves  from dis seizure?
We are tied up, caught up but can we smoke n drag a puff of leisure!

Walking alone wid bag of answer
I decided not to stop! Not to stop!

Ek military wala apna❤

Ek manus jo fakt swatachya sansaaraat guntlela . Ek military wala saglyanchi jaan asnara. Ek asa manus jyane swatachya vichara agodar nehmi dusryncha vichar kela. Kasa hi aso hota tr to ek militarywalach, kiti hi baherun kathor nirdayi disla tri aat madun tewdhach komal hota to.
    So aaj mi tumhala ek story sangte eka military walyachi.
     Paristhithi lahanpana pasunach sthir nhavti. Ha mulga saglyat motha, Military madhe jaun kytri karnyachi iccha hoti gharchyansathi khi tri changla, Gharakadun tewdha prem nhi bhetla jewdha bhetayla hawa. Aai khupach ky mhnu mi tila .....
    Motha jhala ...military madhe bharti hi zala...on lahan ek bhau ani bahin hi hote... tyancha suddha bghaycha hota...
   Lagn zala tyancha....... 3 mul hi zali ek motha mulga n 2 chotya muli....chota bhau shikayla hota.....
    Gharatla kamavnara ekach ....tyachyavar sagli jimeedari jri patni karaychi thoda far sheti pn tichya mulancha sambhal hi hota tijhyamage... to militarywala manus swatachya patnila paise n deta bhavala shikayla paise tyacha khup jiv bhava vr. Jri sagla thik jhala khi varsha nantr..bhavacha lagn jhala to settle jhala ek dur gavala..  2 muli hotya ek 10 varshachi n dusri nuktich janamleli... devala thodina bghvat hota he sagla...
     Tyachya bhavala cancer ha aajar denyat ala..
     Tumhala kallach asel konacha boltiye mi....nkkich majhya kakan baddal bolat asen....
Jevha pappanna cancer jhalta na saglyat jasta kaka khachun gelte. Majhya mammila tr sangitla hi nhavta ki pappa vachnar nhavte.
Kaka kashe ewdhe strong rahile he ajun hi kalla nhiye mala....pappanchya shewtchya shwasachya veles pappanni ek shapat ghetli ki zoya cha sambhal swatachya muli sarkha kar n farin mhnjech mi tila pappanchi kami nko hou deu...tevha pappa ky boltayt he hi kalla nhavta mala pn ata jewha kalayla lagla man bharun yeta he sagla athwun.
Jri mi choti hoti tri thodafar kalat hota samjat hota...to incident kadi visru shakli nhavti...n independent vhaycha saglyanna happy thevnar mothi jhalyavr hi jaan hoti mjhyat....he kakkanna mhit ahe ki mi jiddi ahe....
Ya saglya varshat jri te fakt tyanchya mulancha bghayche te hi swatachya sansaraat magn hote tri joyala nehmi apaar prem karayche...jewha joya tyanna pappa bolaychi mala khup rag yaycha...karan thik ahe tu kaka bol badepapa bol bt not papa. Karan kakanni jri mala jawal nhi ghetla mhnun thodi far khunnas bharleli manat...baalish man hota majha tyancha laksh nehmi asaycha majhyavar trihi tevha kalla nhi mala....
Nehmi vataycha jewdha prem tyanchya mulanvr kartat n joyavr kartat tewdha majhyavr nhi karat..  kdhi kdhi he hi vatun jaycha...ki tyancha barobar mala ka laad kartil te mi thodina tyanchi sakkhi mulgi ahe.  
Khi diwsan purvi achanak tyanna bar nhavta ya khunnasi mule mi bhetayla hi geli nhi tyanna...pn ek diwshi tyanna bilkul bar nhavta icu la hote potat tyanchya aksharsha tambakhu cha gola hota asa sangitla gel he amhala khich mhit nhavta dusrya diwshi amhala he  kalla trihi khich nhi vatla....
Pn tyanni jewha sangitla ki farin la call de...mala ghaycha hi nhavta mammi ne jabardasti bolayla lavla....tyanchya tondatun fakt he nighala ki kaisi h beta? Padhai kaisi chalri baccha? Ewdhya varshatun n aiklela shabd achank kanavr padlya mule aksharsha dole panaavle majhe ky karu ky bolu kalen...ek ghatt mithi dyavishi vatli tyanna bhetavasa vatla tyanna...khup khi bolavasa vatla ewdhya varshat pappanna je khi bolavasa vatat tyanna bolavasa vatla..khup radavasa vatla man halka karavasa vatl pn te tya jagi nhavte...
Dusrya diwshi clsla n jata clgla n jata mi tyanchyakade geli n khup radli...te sudha bolle farin mi sry bolta g ewdha varsh kdhi jawal kel nhi kdhi jast bolla nhi..sry g khup sry....
Ashi hoti ek Chotishi happy realization.
Pahilyanda Marathit lihnyacha prayatn kelay.vachlyabadl Dhanyavad tumcha saglyanca.
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Punjab Tour -2

Back to the topic of my Punjab tour-a life turning experience of me.
So so so...
Toh Punjab janeka wqt ho gaya tha 12 baje hum nikalne wale the... I was all ready for my punjab trip yeah!!! Raatbhar to nind ayi nhi excitement ka bura asar jo hamesha  merpe hota rehta h kya kare hu hi aisi😂😂
Bura to is bat ka lagra tha ki I was leaving Mahad. I know mai wapis anewali thi bt its a different feeling of getting out through my hometown.
So when I was on the place from where we were gonna leave I was the first as usual as said Excitement ka bura asar😂...
Then sab log ane lage with their parents of course Nationals jare the bacche chodne to jarur ayenge . N hamesha ki tarah I was alone na papa chodne aa sakte the wo h meresath hamesha lekin dikhayi nhi dete na mersath baat karte. Maa to thi hi nhi Mahad. Sab parents to apne bacchon ko bolre the thikse ja khyal rakh jyada masti kr, I didnt have anyone with me to say bye to tell myself take care. I had some of my frnds who at pretrip had said thikse ja nhi jeeti to haar mat maan believe in uaself. With the word always KAMINI😂😂 the love is endless here though.
Bt tht time I had no one with me just a small bad time which was gonna pass. Then we started our safar towards Punjab.
Lekin jab hum nikle na, mostly sab parents mere pas aye n batane lage ki Arzoo tu sabme badi h bacchon me tujhe sabka khyal rakhna h sambhalna h sabko kisine to mazak mazak me ye b keh diya ki maa h tu unki ye 7 dinon k liye Maine wo responsibility li jarur pr ssly nhi lekin wo bonding bs badhte gayi jb hum eksath rehte the, like di meresath yaha chalo waha chalo mujhe dar lagta h, di aap plz meresath raho na mujhse baat karo na mamma ki yaad aari h. Di ratko train me mai apke sath rahungi. Di aisa di waisa. Ek chiz dimagse nikal gayi like mai mere behen ka kbhi itna khyal nhi rakhti kbhi nazdik nhi leti use. Ha I love her I love her infinite I do have a spl bond with her, which i cant share with anyone. Lekin kbhi dikha nhi pati. Kbhi kbhi wo bol jati ki q hai tu mere behen, pyar to karti nai mujhse bs naamki behen h tu. Mai janti ki she needs me not everytime bt at tht time when maa gets angry on her she needs someone like me when I was a child n my maa shouted on me bt dad made me feel better ...wo hak h uska jo mai nhi pura kar pati... jb ye sare frnds mujhe di bulate the there was a guilt nai mat bulao di mujhe mai nhi deserve karti nai layak nhi hu mai ki mujhe behen maano tum sab. Lekin jitni responsibility mujhpr as a behen ki thi utna hi khyal rakha gaya tha shayad us chiz ne mujhe badal diya tha. Aajkal railway station is really dangerous for a girl its the reality bt its true. Yeh sab bacche mera hat pakadkar hi ki di ko kuch hona nhi chahiye. Jaiseki mai unki jimmedari hu. Yah it sounds childish bt true it is. Bahot saare bhai behene bana liye h maine but mai successful behen ban nhi oaungi shayad.
Inn sab ne us word ka real meaning samjhaya h mujhe aisa rishta h wo jisko mere life me meaning tha hi nhi. Lekin mai ab wapis nhi jana chahti wapi wo attitude girl nhi banna chahti wapis wahi meaningless arzoo banna nhi chahti.
One person I forgot to mention my coach my da he never treated me less then his real sis. Ik after dis m gonna get a lots of msges of how can u say this n all...bt m saying Mai ek achi behen kbhi thi hi nhi na hi houngi merko ye realization ho chuka h lekin I cant get over this anytime. Meri behen k saamne to mai kbhi achi behen thi hi nhi so I m a failure here as well.
A childish experience it was but for me a treasure.
Thanx for reading😘✌

Be proud of uaself♥

I know there r days where u just want to completely breakdown. Days where u wonder if you can even find d strength to keep fighting bcoz ua exhausted.
Bt u keep it together. You smile n carry on like everything inside of u isnt breaking. You help others without thinking to ask foh help foh uaself. You dont want yo seem like burden.
N idk what ua going through exactly. Maybe its a breakup. Maybe its work or a million other things. Ppl demand a lot from u n u never let anyone down. You never disappoint them. You bust ua ass to appease ppl who doesnt even say thank you. That takes strength. So i want to thank you on behalf of those who dont appreciate what you do foh them. I want to show gratitude foh those who dont who c wht ua going through. You make it look easy n thts y ppl dont realise how deeply u r aching r8 now.
Your tired eyes wonder if theres more than wat your getting r8 now.
Im proud of u foh how strong u r.
Strength like yours comes in silent battles,ppl dont no u fight. It  comes in tears you either repress or no one knows you cry.
Its in nights where u lay awake wondering if there is ever going to b more foh u.
That unfulfilled feeling is good. It is there to show you that you arent in d right place anymore. Being uncomfortable is good. That means ua growing.
Maybe where u r r8 now youve excelled as much as u can n theres no place higher you can go.
You should b proud of uaself foh tht. Bt i need u foh keep going. Keep trying. Keep working. Dont lose faith. Bcoz its in those moments where u want to getup and walk away, and quit. Comes something rewarding. There is something on other side of this confusion heartbreak n sadness.
You just have to get there first.
Jst knoe u aren't  alone.
#note #to #yourself

I call it a Duvidha...

Hello ppl..
  Firstly I  would like to thank to all my regular  readers for reading my blogs and waiting for  my blog weekly.
    Actually I will not be continuing the topic of the previous blog. Of course  I'll  do it in next blog. Sorry for the interruption.
      This  blog is actually  a question  for  you all that of course you have to answer  me. Ye bas mera question nhiye ye question aaj tak bahot logon se pass hua hoga kuch logon ko solution mila hoga kuch logon ko nhi. Mai to is bareme soch b nhi pati.
    Socially we give a positive response to this but individually I don't  think so it's possible at least not  for  me.
     After loosing the pillar of our house 7 years back. My Maa got back to studies.  Completed her degree. It just took a year.  Even though she wasn't  stable that  time but she thought  of me and my small sister. Being unstable  she thought of us so that  she could give us a better future she could fulfill daddy's  last wish which he had from me.
      Merko samaj nhi thi us wqt I  was immature. I guess utna maine kbhi socha hi nhi tha 10 tak kbhi nhi. But jab ab samjh aa gayi to kuch karna h MAA k liye kuch to.
    Meri ek dost h ..wo dost bahot special  h mereliye badi h merse lekin uske sath bhi wahi hua jo meresath hua. Papa naam ki chhat chali gayi thi maa padhi likhi nhi thi bartan dhona karti thi 4 gharon ka.........  samjh thi usme ki use kuch karna h .......badi honepr jab wo pura ghar handle karne lagi tbhi use samjh aya ki...uske maa ki khushi bacchon k khushi me to h but she needs a pillar she needs someone jo use sambhal sake a guide a lifeline......she thought of her mothers remarriage...yah! remarriage!!...When I got to know about this maine  bhi josh josh me soch liya ki mai bhi MAA ki dusri shaadi karwaungi...maa ka hak h wo. Maa ki umar hi kya thi just  35...kuch karna h ....jab  mai is bareme sochne lagi I was like mai dad ki jagah kaise kisiko de paungi. Wo mujhse hoga hi nhi. Kisi aur ko papa kaise bula paungi...kya wo insan zoya ko papa ka pyar de payega...kya wo insan humein aur maa ko dur karega ya waise hi  rahega. Mai papa ki jagah to kisi aur ko kbhi de nhi paungi kbhi bhi nhi. Mai imagine tak nhi kar sakti lekin mere aise behaviour se zoya bhi close nhi ho payegi jane anjane me wo bhi hate karegi aur is sab me maa ko khush karne k bajay hurt ho jayegi. Lekin agar aisa nhi hua to..agar zoya ko papa ka pyar mila maa khush rahi to?
     Ye ek aisa que h life jo hamesha complicated rahega jiska solution shayad mujhe kbhi nhi mile shayad!

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Punjab tour

I love to be in my skating group...kyunki
Wahape me sabse close hu...aur wo log kisi b chiz se merko hurt nhi karna chahte h.
      Actually I'll start from the starting....11 class me mai bhatak gayi thi...like usi state of mind me rehte hue decided tha ki chalo skating competetion h to de aate waise b punjab achi jagah h ghum b aayenge . Maine kbhi jyada socha hi nhi tha ki I have to skate n win wo mere mentality me tha hi nhi. Yes! I speak frankly about this. Mai bas yahi janti ki sab log mere hometown jaa rahe h n kisi bahane se mujhe bhi wahi jana h ...sabse milna h enjoy karna  h. 
     Ha mai stable nhi thi. I dont know the reason. Shayad 8 9 ya 10 class ki arzoo ko dekhkar ye bhi nhi lagega ki arzoo aisi ho jayegi. Kyunki mai kbhi aisi thi hi nhi. Mai itni bigdalu thi hi nhi.
     Skating ki practice to maine jyadatar ki hi nhi. Morning practices to mai bs 2 3 baar gayi thi. Mera hometown jakar bas yahi hua tha ki college jana frnds ke...cafe frnds ke sath...photoshoot jati thi... nhito mobile pr chatting aur bacha kucha wqt skating me jata tha. Kya aisehi mai jeetnewali thi? Kya aisehi khudki kabiliyat dikhanewali thi? Kya overconfidence tha jo mujhe piche khich raha tha? Ha thi mai overconfidence me...jitna to dur ki baat mai conpetetion me rehne ke layak nhi thi.
        Adat lad gayi thi khud pe garv honeki attitude sath rakhneki. Jbse college life shuru hui thi fake banne ki aadatsi ho gayi thi. Jo sach tha wo khud hi bhul chuki thi.
Fake care, fake smile , fake enjoyment was trending in my life. Having fake enjoyment with some fake friends and posting it into social sites to show how close n unbreakable friendship we have was a game. Ye sab badal gaya tha ...mai badal gayi thi meri aadatein badal gayi thi. Kuch rishton ki sahi pehchan saamne ayi thi in kuch trips pr jakar jaiseki Punjab aur Delhi.
       I found my truth of life.
    I shall write the next part in next blog.
   Thanx ppl to read😘💟

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Mai nhi janti ki yeh jo mai likh rahi hu wo aap tk pahonch payega ya nhi...pr allah se yahi request karti hu ki please yeh baatein in tak pahonch jaye...isliye nhi ki merko ye sab yaad h to mai ek ideal beti hu n all...balki pappa in sab baaton yaadon se mai roz guzarti hu...harroz....jar chiz merko aapki yaad dilati h..mai abhi b wahi 10 saal ki ladki banna chahti hu..jise duniya ka koi dar nhi tha ki wo use kya bole kyunki wo janti thi uske papa uske side hi rahenge..sahi rahi to sath kbhi nhi chodenge...galat rahi to use jarur samjhayenge lekin paraya nhi karenge
..hamare gharme jeans pehenna allowed hi nhi tha lekin mujhe pasand tha isliye aapne to dadi ko b daanta tha....pr ab to aap hi nhi ho ye batane ki mai sahi hu ya galat....aap hi nhi ho mujhe samjhane...aap hi nhi ho meri side lene...aap hi nhi ho papa....
     Thanx for reading....