Dad

Dad...i know after writing about this topic many will have mixed feelings like why is she writing about this, is this a topic to write? And some will excite for this....I really don't  no what's  your state of mind....but though on father's day...everyone posts pics of their dad...dedicated to them respect and blah blah blah.....Do you really spend some time with him that do you really say him I love you....though you are a daughter or a son...he loves you infinite he sacrifices....when you loose he shouts...but you can't even imagine how bad he feels....yess!! I made a mistake.....i didn't say my dad that I love him when he was alive....I had 10 years....so many opportunities to tell him that I love him him to the core but I didn't... I thought he will never leave me....never thought of this time would come that he will be nowhere...just in heart n my mind....I lost him 7 years back...this 7 years...made me so strong that sometimes  my mom says...."You are a stone arzoo....you will never understand feelings of anyone".....I feel so bad that time....but time made me so strong so stupid...this 7 years took out my childhood....I had to be mature before the time....the time I lost you I had no idea that you will be not there with us anytime....just a state of mind your not getting up and so everyone's  crying....next day when  I didn't  find you anywhere I broke out...I really had no idea of how was I going to live my rest of my life.....yess tht I lost you as well as myself....I never break out before  anyone....its not possible for me...you can't  even imagine a life of a daughter who was the heartbeat of her dad....when  the dad leaves her in half of the circle of life. ....Actually I'll write the other half in next blog... Thanks for reading Guyz 😘